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May 6, 2010
My Dearest Michael, My Beloved,
Okay, I know I’m arrogant. I thought I was doing okay for a while, but it seems that I am mostly fixated on ME, and making mySELF feel good… and I’m sorry. 
I don’t mean to be really, arrogant that is – of course I really am sorry. Sometimes I just want to crawl in a hole and hide forever, but I know that would do no one any good either, especially myself, when all I really need to do is just learn to be more humble and giving. I know many people would probably say that I’m about the humblest most giving person they know, but I get the feeling that they’re wrong. … I wish you’d tell me what you think, but then I’d feel like I was making it all about me again. Well, one thing I know, which makes me feel better is that you still love me. You always will. And you’re so very patient with me – most of the time. 
Just be patient with me a little longer… see I’ve learned that from you at least, and although I spend way too much time thinking about you and me together, I have come to the conclusion that waiting isn’t so bad after all.
Okay, well, I gotta run… you know, I have an appointment to keep with my student pretty soon. I wish I could just stay here and rest and think … about you … and me… *SIGH*
I love you Michael. I will see you soon, My Love.
Forever Yours, Ariel
